I am an awful person.
I am an awful person. I feel like I am a carbon copy of most people I look up to, I subconsciously mimic parts of their personality. Even if I feel I am doing something “original”, in the back of my mind I still have the feeling I’m just copying someone else.
I don’t feel human, I don’t feel whole. I look at myself in the mirror and I don’t even look real to myself. I don’t feel like anything.
I don’t even know who I am anymore. I think back to when my mother and father told me they “missed their little girl, we want our baby back”. I don’t know how to get her back.
I don’t think she’ll ever be back. I think I killed her. Or at least buried her deep inside me.