yikes!
GOSH! Am I annoying? a thought that constantly runs through my head… I can’t stop it, it worries me everyday, maybe it’s true? I’m starting to believe it.
I hear the people around me tell me it isn’T… but are they lying to me? i don’t know. I don’t know. I HATE thinking like this… just paranoid about everything. The thoughts have been getting worse, it distresses me so much. Maybe they’re just telling me that so I don’t think about it anymore. So I don’t nag and bother them.
I wish I could just read minds. but if I did, would I like what I find? Would the truth be what I wanted? What if everyone is lying. What if they do hate me? what would I do?
I’d probably do nothing. Because what could I do? My heart sinks at the thought, but it wouldn’t be anything I’d be able to do about it.
I’d simply have to move on. I mean, what could I say to change their minds about me? I’m driving myself insane aren’t I. Yikes! I need a drink. Or something.
If I annoyed you… would you tell me? So I could either improve or perhaps… leave you alone? I can do both. I am easy to mold.