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Hi again. It’s nice to use my BearBlog again, recently I’ve been experiencing some really graphic intrusive thoughts. I feel like at some point, one of these thoughts are going to really happen, and I’ll ruin someone else’s life or harm them forever.
It’s even been leaking over to my vision and dreams. I’ll sometimes get vivid flashes of a graphic thought that’s either me being assaulted or me Harming someone else. I feel so repulsed and disgusting by them, Even in my dreams I’m not safe, as I’ll get them there too. They’re so stressful and painful to go through—I Don’t know what’s wrong with me but I Wish It would stop. I wish it would stop please. Every day is like torture, I hate every single one of these Thoughts and it makes me adverse to Being Close to others—As I think I’ll hurt them in some way. I also just don’t think Anyone should be Around Someone as Disgusting and Revolting as Me.
I think there’s something watching and Stalking me. I’m so scared. I’m so afraid, I don’t know if it’s my eyes or What, but I’m so Scared. I sometimes see the figures but I don’t know if it’s really just my Eyes. I hope it’s my eyes. I hope so.
I Feel Isolated and Alone. I feel like this Pathetic-Looking picture of Coco. Great Stuff.
