Brightside
Recently I haven’t been feeling very well, I’m starting to get really grotesque intrusive thoughts again & I feel really Suicidal but I hope that Talking about my Favorite Things will help. Here’s what I’ve been doing this week:
Firstly I’ve been playing StarRail again, I Got archer and I have to try and get The Tribbies before they leave. I haven’t gotten far in the story, I’ve been mostly doing side quests—Since I don’t want them to pile up when I play the main story—I Try and do as much as I can… but my device gets really hot and I get really scared. I have a somewhat ok team, mostly because of the free *5 Giveaway Events… I hope my account gets better and I get better things. I’m awful at building characters.
I’ve had a really big sweet tooth lately, not sure what’s that about though. Here are some sweets I’ve eaten:
- Chocolate chip cookies
- Snickers Bars (my favorite)
- Rum Raisin Ice Cream
- Almond & Coconut covered Brownies (I do not like Coconuts but these were Ok.)
- Mike & Ikes Watermelon Sour candies
I don’t remember what else but Currently I have Chocolate Peanut Butter Cups… I Like them they’re nice. I wish I had a Cliff Bar, the chocolate peanut butter ones, those are great and they’re like a Inbetween meal for me.
Speaking of eating I’ve always had a hard time eating consistently; I’m not sure why but I have, and I’ve always been sort of picky about what I eat. Though I’ve always felt guilty about wasting food, if I didn’t like a food I’d get Nauseous and Almost throw it up.
I guess I had a restrictive diet and I started to eat less mysteriously. I don’t remember really, I know Some of the things I would consider pretty safe but other than that I don’t know.
I’ve started writing again! I’m sort of excited since I’m Finally working on a Project I’ve been wanting to Do since forever. I don’t know if I’ll ever share it with anyone but if you ever find it, please be kind and send your thoughts. It’s sort of a large story but I hope I remembered most of it. I do not write down OC lore which I Probably Should.
Everything inspires me so much. I’ve been itching to make a Graphic or a Layout or Something… Something! I want to make something and Improve my GFX skills, my style, my placement, my everything! I love creating things so much… I’ve been reading Witch Hat Atelier and it made me want to make a Simple Rentry.
I know it’s sort of Lame and Lackluster but I really adore Tetia… and I really Love Coco a lot… I really like the story so far. I hope to “^finish” it by next week, and if I can remember to, I’ll give you all a post with my thoughts on the manga. I’ve been trying to read more manga—Just Read More in General! All of it is Inspiring to me… I want to make a Qifrey Layout or a Umamusume Rentry. Maybe I should revamp my Commissions and Resource page? Gosh I don’t know. But I feel like since I’m so eager to do something I May end up actually doing something for once…
^: WHA isn’t over yet… it’s still ongoing! I just mean finish reading all the Available Chapters… 😅
I also got into a New Game. Nikke Goddess of Victory, it reminds me of Girls Frontline but also of an older game called “Goddess Kiss”… You kiss the girls to wake them up from the Horrible Spell they’re Under. With Nikke it’s just shooter girls in a Post-Apocalyptic world which I’m pretty fine with. It’s fun and I Like the story so far, the artwork is nice and I Have two characters I Enjoy.
Thats all for now. I feel slightly better, I hope this Feeling Passes.