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I’ve been feeling annoyed with myself again, I’ve started to hate talking to the people I adore and I feel this bitter resentment towards them. I’ve been trying to block these feelings but nothing seems to be working—It Feels like everything I say or do with anyone is just so Irritating. I Hate Reading my messages I hate Talking to others because I sound so moronic. I can’t explain it but I just don’t want anything To Do with anyone Right now.
It’s like everything I do is so Irritating everything I say is so Stupid and Idiotic I can’t believe people sit around me all day and Listen to me Talk. I Know in their heart of hearts, they can’t stand me. Just Thinking about some of the things I’ve said all in the hopes of getting “closer” it sounds so Fake and Stupid, I have no appeal I just want to rip my mouth off and never speak again.
Saying this out loud sounds so stupid but I'm under some weird kind of stress and mental pain. Take that as You Will but I absolutely loathe the way I talk and I Don’t Understand why people keep coming back to me to converse to me more. I sound like an idiot