Safe Person
Recently, I have been developing a Term for Myself. Something called the “Safe Person”.
A Safe Person is someone who I trust Completely. Someone I know will not hurt me, someone I know will not hate me for a mistake, someone I know won’t betray me in any way. Someone who I can finally let my Guard down with—Someone who I really think cares about me.
Someone who Understands.
Recently I’ve been feeling like… I Can’t Trust Anyone. Like I have to have Walls up all the time in case something happens and things go awry. I mostly try to avoid any Negative Confrontations between anyone I talk to, I try and be the most agreeable and respectful in the Relationship so no problems arise and They look back at our Relationship with happy memories only. I mentally catalog the things that Upset the people around me, whether it be Slightly upsetting or Severely, so that I don’t mess up. I can’t mess up.
So the idea that Someone I know and trust… Someone I can finally Climb over the Walls I built to Keep People Out—And to keep myself in and “safe”—and relax and know that They won’t get made at me for Making a Mistake. For Forgetting something they said or Whatever. Someone who I can go to and Not feel like I’m not a Bother or Annoying them. It feels like a Dream.
I’d like a Safe Person. I want someone to be my Safe Space. To have a Relationship like that, where I don’t have to feel Paranoid and I can finally be Secure—I Wish I had that Badly.
I know it sounds sort of Cheesy—But as someone who Constantly obsesses over people’s perceptions of me And if I’m Being Annoying. Which has me avoid making new Relationships or Connections with anyone. It’s Terrible.
So, yes. This is my Personal Label for someone I hold close & dear. If you use it, I don’t care. But it would be Nice to see it Spread around by People who relate to my Issues and Problems.