Graduate
It’s been a While. Hi, I just Graduated.
I went to a party, It was nice. I Wore my Sash or… However You Spell it at the restaurant, my close family was there and we all ate, joked, and had a nice time.
I Kept getting asked “How Do you feel about graduating?” I Don’t feel anything. I was constantly telling people “I Feel Fine” since I Honestly Don’t feel like I deserve to Graduate. I Don’t think I Deserve to go to college.
I feel like I failed. I feel like I didn’t study enough, Learned enough, I feel like… gosh I Feel Terrible saying this but Like a child left behind. There’s so much I didn’t understand, I feel like I don’t Deserve This Victory. I didn’t do anything great, why am I being celebrated? I’ve done nothing but waste away my Time & Life. Does A Bum deserve To be Treated to an Expensive Dinner? To Be Given Gifts and Money? What I have done to receive any of this, besides be a Leech?
Call it “Imposter Syndrome” if you’d like, but I feel Useless really. I Haven’t achieved anything, I haven’t gotten any of my goals done, Yet I’m Here graduating .
Even if Life isn’t over for me, it feels that Way. I Feel like I should be happy for this new Chapter of my life but I feel Nothing. Absolutely Nothing.
This Isn’t to say I’m not grateful For The gifts or Everyone coming to my party, I Just Feel Neutral about everything. It doesn’t feel as exciting as I Thought I would be.
I did Like this Drawing My mutual aime made. Cutieful.
