New Beginning
I’m Graduating soon. In about two days.
I’m going to take pictures, have a dinner at a nice restaurant, spend time with family & more. Isn’t that great? It’s also made me realize something. I really have matured over the years. I feel like I’ve grown, I Sort of feel good About myself. It’s so weird to say this, since I feel like I haven’t really changed at all but… Comparing myself to my past selves I feel Like The Person I never thought I’d turn into. I feel more knowledgeable, I feel more mature when handling different situations, I Feel like I can Take on the world.
I Don’t feel weak, I don’t feel Useless. Not as much anyway, but it’s still a stark contrast from how I felt prior. Maybe it’s because I’m Opening a new Chapter of my Life?
I Talked to my granddad. I Forgot to Wish him happy Birthday, I feel rather sad. But That’s off topic, he told me that “I had to Figure out what I want to do in life; your mother did, your father did, everyone did. You’re going to have to Sit Down and figure out what You want in Your life.” My life. Figure out what I do in my life. Something about that sort of gave me a Sense of Autonomy? Over My Life? Something I’ve never Really had a lot of times.
I’ve been Sort of sheltered and Controlled my whole life. I’ve had some control of decisions in my Life but many times I Didn’t really have a Say in what happens or What I do. I’ve been sort of tucked away from the world——But I guess you can say that’s my fault, since I Forced myself Into a hole.
Whatever. Things Will be better, I know They will. I’m happy to Say I will be a Future Nurse! Practitioner! And if I Don’t end up a nurse… I’ll probably Be A doctor LOL!
I can’t wait for the Summertime. I’ll have a nice summer job, I’ll be gardening, The House will get worked on, it’ll be amazing.
I Hope you Are excited for the summer too.