mundane

I Hate YoU And Your Nappy Headed Kids

Recently been working on myself.  I’ve been reflecting on  my  past  choices and challenges, and more importantly,  my flaws. I realize how toxic I am, and probably come off to other people.  I don’t want to be deemed as  “a bad person” by others, so I will change myself to please them.

Some of my negative traits that I have noticed is that I am neglectful,   I will ghost people and give them the ”silence treatment”,  Most of the time I will not be upfront about how I feel about a person,  slow to anger but when I become angry at someone I will end up pushing them away from me.  Terrible temper,  nasty mouth. I’m not even sure that’s everything.  I guess I build superficial relationships  ? Unsure. Regardless, I want to become better.

I don’T want others to harp on  about  these things. I  want to improve and show people that I can change. That I will change.   I don’t want these traits or my past choices  to keep bothering me at night.  I don’t want to be haunted by myself anymore.

Allow Me To Armchair Psychiatrist for a second.  I find it funny how  people expect other people to change their awful ways but yet never take responsibility and action for themselves. Like gosh… expecting to receive and never give!  I think we all have problems with ourselves,  as man is not perfect. Even if you consider yourself to be, you have some sort of flaw that keeps you from being that “creature of ultimate perfection and immaculateness”.  If we were all perfect  then I think that would be boring. Like seriously,  we’d be stuck as a society.

So, all I can say is  continue to work on yourself. If you are currently, that is.