Hello Again
Hi BearBlog! It’s been such a long time, I’m glad to be back writing here again. So much has happened, and I want to dump it all here!
I recently turned 19——Something I Honestly didn’t think I would be——I had a Relaxing birthday. I got obsessed with coding and Minecraft again; My Site, Prumano on Neocities, is rotting away. I’ve been Working on other projects and Webpages (Mainly Strawpages) to pass the time, but nothing felt more exciting than Working on Prumano.
I have a few Rentry commissions to finish, I don’t have a single idea how I’m going to do any of them, and one of them I haven’t spoken to the commissioner in over a week. Ooops… I Think after I’m finished with my commissions, I’ll close them and work on requests and my own personal projects. I feel like I’ve neglected myself and my own passions——Which is probably why I Have no Motivation to do anything with Rentry.
Using Rentry feels so Irritating now. I feel like a Loser using it and I’m not sure how other people, whether they have good URLs or Not, don’t feel like fucking lames using it either. That doesn’t mean I Don’t Like making Rentry layouts, I’m just… Getting burnout. It’s This is so Stupid to say it’s a Markdown single-paged site that Some people have turned into a Competition & Community it’s not really serious at all. Whatever
I tried to kill myself twice both times with poison. I did not think my life had value or purpose. I thought my friends hated me and This One person I want to get Closer with Made me Spiral when they didn’t reply to me Quick Enough. I know that sounds ridiculous, it is. I know it is. I just get frustrated when I can’t tell my relationship with someone who I Like genuinely.
I Constantly get mixed signals from them but it’s whatever. I Think I’m just letting anything get to me.
I Revamped Horror! Hello Horrorblog Fans Horror on BearBlog is Now Prettified once again!!! Thank you god for Inspect element 💜🐇 I Don’t know what I’d
Do without you.
I made some new Friends and Joined a Nice new server. Everyone seems really Nice. Life is finally feels Calm for me even if it seems really off the walls. Something Something “Guy who is Going to be OK”.